Going into the weekend, my biggest expectation was to experience Gods love and peace. And it was so amazing to me that I already started experiencing that in the week while we were preparing in the mornings. 

At first I want really feeling sound and song and I was disappointed because I didn't experience Him so when Ps John said that we should sing one more song I was excited because it felt like a second chance for me. And it was amazing because then I experienced the pure joy of being in the Fathers presence. Earlier that afternoon I said to Anke that there is something of the Fathers presence that makes you addicted. You get intoxicated with His presence and your soul longs for that feeling. 

Ps Sharon did an alter call for anyone who needs help with feeling the Fathers love for us so I went. The people in front were holding us and praying for us to feel His love. I had just come out of a moment with the Lord before the call so as I was standing in front I wasn't really feeling anything. Everyone around me was laughing or crying and I thought that I wouldn't get a moment then because I had just come out of one and I was just not feeling it. But as Danny came closer to be and held people next to me I could feel His love through that. And when she stood in front it hit me. She held me and I broke out in tears. 

Being in His presence and feeling His love for me just showed me why I haven't felt truly satisfied with the love that I have received in the past. 

Throughout the weekend I really just recognised that if you do not take the leap and just in when there is a surg, you will not experience what they are experiencing